(Source: staypozitive)
2 may
I’m so tired of lies. I’m tired of bullshit. I’m tired of people not knowing how good they are. I’m tired of telling lies to make people feel better. I’m tired of hiding secrets. I’m tired of people asking whats wrong when everything is okay. I’m tired of people thinking life is hard when they themselves make it complicated. I’m tired of hearing one night stands. I’m tired of listening to sex jokes. i’m tired of listening about drinks and getting high. I’m tired of fighting for nothing. I’m tired of holding something thats not there. I’m tired of fixing stuff that is already broken. I’m tired of people not knowing what to appreciate. I’m tired of thinking where to eat. I’m tired of smoking. I’m tired of going out alone. I’m tired of going home late at night. I’m tired of playing games just to kill the time. I’m tired of spending money to something you can’t see. I’m tired of plans.
what I’m not tired of is being there for everyone that i care about. well i try and its eating me inside if i can’t help. they say you can’t help everyone well I’m going to and I’m never going to stop.
i miss having long walks at the beach. i miss having conversation at night while looking at the sea and the stars. i miss saying I’m home to someone that genuinely cares. i miss looking at my passenger seat and seeing a girl smiling. i miss the days where we can just drive around not talk and still smile. i miss doing random stuff. i miss eating out without me paying =) or perhaps sharing a meal. i miss going “home” and saying I’m hungry. i miss cooking stuff for my self. i miss sleeping in the afternoon while worrying about class. i miss the exhaust sound when i drive my car. i miss the bass sound in my car. i miss wiping the front windshield every time it rains.
this is the real world. its true that it do not start when you reach 18 or when you have your first kiss. it started when you came out to the world. stop holding on to something that makes you stand there stupid alone. stop having partners if its lust you’re altering. stop finding trouble for yourself. stop being a dick. stop thinking of your own self. stop smoking. stop waiting. stop holding on to something you didn’t have the first place.
theres no stop button so either leave or stay. know your limits.
Everytime, I say “oh, i kinda like this girl.” You say, “oh, you guys look good together.” I Lie. I was trying to get you jealous from the first day i met you, but we ended up being so close, were like brother and sister to you, But to me, I never wanted that, I wanted to be yours.
But i know now, its impossible.
(Source: hearings)
